Smoke

Smoke fire burn hurt orange death yellow red waves blue clear depthless cock

(I got interrupted by "Jungle Love" playing which is where the cock came from. haha.)

Freckle brown dirt growth sow seeds of love in your life Green earth trees shrubs scenery vast planes of barren deserts cactus prickly poke thorns red red rose paint the roses red crimson drops blood pools puddle shiny crimson perfectness epic battles waging war swords knives guns metal banging *tink tink* of swords smashing against each other love death war constant conflict forever lost regret beach sun palm trees teal waves crashing against the fine sand of the never ending beaches beaches beaches darkness fills my mind at night loneliness unhappiness black black everything is so dark damp cold muggy basement cowering in the corner drip drip goes a leakey pipe locked pad locked inside trapped no way out end this now where is the sun climb claw fight your way out one day one day at a time constant fight for love, life happiness always acceptance Fear of the unknown fear of the Failure Failure such a Failure why do I even exist no meaning pointless constantly hurting myself others hurting others is tragedy romeo and Juliet suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide always back to suicid constantly on my mind take it away make it go away hate it so much pain blood sweat tears cant do it hurts other people cant hurt others compassion care for others but not self hate self change self act happy put a smile on your face and pretend to be happy no more pretending need real happiness need the sun rain clouds black clouds thunder lightning blue violet flashes in the darkness crack loud deafening where is sun rain pouring drowns out tears covers tears cry alone don’t admit defeat Force happiness wind whipping wildly touseling hair mess mess so much mess sickness death death cut cut but hide it so nobody knows just a little deeper crimson tide take me away pain Coursing through my veigns pulsing crimson sickness onto my pastey white skin red and white red red red more red leads to black death suicide fire why so much death suicid and fire is there a bigger problem than I thought help help do I need help no independence strength do it on your own help=weakness will be strong no help alone sadness battles with my soul iceicles hanging from my cold clad heart glistening blue and white iridescence shiny stainless steel edge sharp skin sharp on skin=bleed crimson red blood pain cold metal hot blood spew pour fuck I have issues need to get it out bleed it out trauma death get it out before suicide consumed in Fear constant fear of everything world ocean land mountains volcanos spewing red orange fiery liquid destroying people stars galaxy outer space blackness flooding in a sea of blackness tired too young to die tired lame fail cant fail no more failure done.