Hurt

hurt pain rubber bands snap snap snap not enough need more blood need blood fresh crimson tide flowing from white milky skin so beautiful sun yellow orange warmth acceptance love hate tragedy romeo and Juliet suicide always suicide no other way out i need it now now now no i'm better than that broken jaded trauma so much trauma need help independence cant ask for help cant do it need to be strong need to be independent do it on your own fractured mentality skewed reality what is up what is down i don't understand anything anymore nothing makes sense its all so confusing spiraling downward smack hit the concrete grey rough cold so cold always cold need medicine doctor hate doctor don't go